Ongoing Horrible

Adam showed me and sarah this.
I think sarah already knew of it.
Its so good.



I quit my stupid job today.

-Jimmy

Somewhere..Ill probably pass out.

My latest and..yeah.

ive discovered the super furry animals. and maps and atlases.
its love.

0Jimmy

hmmmm..

SO many people are so quick to jump to conclusions and state an opinion about something. Its sickening though sometimes. This is true. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion. Yes awesome. I can relate to that statement and live through and by it. I realize this truth. I also realize that some things you hear are not always going to be something you agree with. Another side effect of opinions. But theres a difference between hearing someones opinion as well as understanbding it and someone elses opinion being forced upon you. Someones stating an opinion and then trying to make you think that they are right and you are wrong. I get this the most from my parents. and when i say parents I mean my dad. Nothing is good enough for him. Everything I do, every choice Ive made in the last, i dont know 3 years, is not good enough for him and he holds these negative feelings and biasts towards me and what I do. Unsupportive and pessimistic are two great ways to describe him. He is the reason I want to leave here. He is also the reason I become so entangled in thought and debate with myself. His words, rare but always harsh and negative, are what make me wonder if I will ever become anything. It is because of him I am here and ironically he is the same reason I want so badly to leave.

I am branching off.
I am growing.

My father. Society's offspring. He is a product like all of society and he is a storage unit for the stereotypical views and cliche demands of society as a whole. We are given these rights. These privelages and abilities to ues our voice and state what we think or feel freely. But right after we opinionize we are struck down. We are told we are wrong and we are looked down upon as an outcast. and society makes it seem as though we deserve nothing and condescends our very being, our way of living, until eventually we are right back where we started. Unopinionated.
A tool.
A machine.
We are given this ability, this right, to state how we feel. and when we think differently than everyone else we are looked down upon.
Our ability of freedom in the form of personal statement is taken away from us before we can even use it.

Screw society. Screw anyone who doubts your abilities to perform or think. I dont mean to sound cliche' but Fuck conformity. Where does it get anyone. Thinking like the next average joe. I am sick of being told I can do something if it makes me happy and then when I do it, and it does make me happy, and then being told I am wrong for doing it, for following through. Reason and passion. That is all that should matter.

It never will.
We are all talk.

For as much as I love having views and opinions, I miss when I didnt have AS many. When I had nothing to worry about and I didnt think until I thought my head might explode.





I wish I was a bird.
-Jimmy

Itll take some time.

"Her eyes swelled up in the bars soft lights. I drank and watched her laugh and then we sang loud in the dying streets and i was so drunk my heart floated like a feather in the breeze i got so high off all the blinking lights the color painted in the night."

-Chris McCaughan.

Amazing man. amazing song.

Ive been tihnking a lot lately. andworrying..but then realizing Im not even sure what Im confused about. I hate this.

Where am I going ?
When Will I get there ?

-Jimmy

We'll shine..

Shine..

Shine..





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That is all eh..-Jimmy

Holding My Breath..

It is one day until Spring Break is over. It is now that i ask myself whether it was as good as it could have been. it was pretty fun. i guess. I think it oculd have been mroe fun. And it oculd have ended better than my friend cutting open his arm while we were all drunk and other stuff. But yeah I dont know. It was still fun I still saw a bunch of people I havent in a while and Met new ones who will become good friends imsure as well as made old friendships stronger. It was good for the most part but i coul have done so much mroe ..I worked and then hungout . I didnt go anywhere further than elgin. I dunno. ah. life.

My birthday is in 5 days ish. 6 kinda. Im excited. I have that entire weekend off. party party. 19 is..alrigh ti guess a big one not really but still getting older.

I didnt really take any picture over break. I should have though. Cause I have two projects to do haha. shoot. Ill deifnitly do some tomrrow. cause..It has to get done. I actually made this tonight..



Displace me Event is almost here and im totalyl excited for it adn everything haha. Itsgonna be so great.



Ive bee nthinking alot about friendships lately. It seems all my friends are starting to make everything we do a competition. all my close friends. who are mostly, you guessed it, all male. But yeah..i mean everything is becoming some competition with girls, music, movies. Its all getting too ridiculous. and im starting to get annoyed. im realyl starting to branch off to other groups of people cause I have more than 5 friends. and i need to crete those friendships. connections. it all about trying to make everyone happy. Dont think i dont make myself happy i do. but i want to be the one person people call whe ntheyre doing something..i want to be that one awesome friend that everyone calls when theyre bored. i have mnore than 5 friends. and im jsu tnow realizing.

im ready or not. you're here i come.
-Lawrence Arms.

-Jimmy

loss of interest..or lack of. either way right..

So I havent posted anything in a while. i got busy then lazy, busy once agian, and now im jsut being lazy. So ill do it now. 230 of the AM

Beenthinking a lot about pictures, picture taking, and life in general. very vague. ojh well. i sentered some prints in an art show. and im wondering what will happen there. i dont know about that. well see. could go either ways and im not very optimistic.

i just dont feel like posting things. Wow.

Its spring break. Woop.

this was my latest studio project. i named it ENVY.