Leaving next year is looking better and better..

No one knows how to make me feel more of a stranger here than my mom. she just doesnt care about me and makes it very apparent. shes subtle but not overly subtle. she makes it clear. Take today. she made it very clear that the new furnace we dont even need is more important than me. It ridiculous.

i want to go away. I need to leave. im too independant fo rthis household. i hardly ever ask them for anything, certainly not money, and i feel unloved and unwelcome. its crazy.

my plan is to see how the summer goes and if i can save enough im out of here. i want out. its too much. being hated can only be stood for so long.

anywho, new classes started today. psychology is something ive been looking foreward to along with studio lighting. and tomorrow some math :[ and then my digital class which im also pumped about.

i need to find a job soon. a new one. i had no hours at all this week. depending on if anything is offered or comes up this weekend jobwise i dont htink im gonna go anymore, even if i get scheduledhours. its not worth it. its pretty clear i wont get an apology for what happened even though looking at it now what happened was totally justified. but still. i mean jesus christ my manager cheated on her husband and i got blamed wtf is that. buncha bullshit.

heres some stuff i did today. it was a lazy day.

-jimmy