hmmmm..

SO many people are so quick to jump to conclusions and state an opinion about something. Its sickening though sometimes. This is true. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion. Yes awesome. I can relate to that statement and live through and by it. I realize this truth. I also realize that some things you hear are not always going to be something you agree with. Another side effect of opinions. But theres a difference between hearing someones opinion as well as understanbding it and someone elses opinion being forced upon you. Someones stating an opinion and then trying to make you think that they are right and you are wrong. I get this the most from my parents. and when i say parents I mean my dad. Nothing is good enough for him. Everything I do, every choice Ive made in the last, i dont know 3 years, is not good enough for him and he holds these negative feelings and biasts towards me and what I do. Unsupportive and pessimistic are two great ways to describe him. He is the reason I want to leave here. He is also the reason I become so entangled in thought and debate with myself. His words, rare but always harsh and negative, are what make me wonder if I will ever become anything. It is because of him I am here and ironically he is the same reason I want so badly to leave.

I am branching off.
I am growing.

My father. Society's offspring. He is a product like all of society and he is a storage unit for the stereotypical views and cliche demands of society as a whole. We are given these rights. These privelages and abilities to ues our voice and state what we think or feel freely. But right after we opinionize we are struck down. We are told we are wrong and we are looked down upon as an outcast. and society makes it seem as though we deserve nothing and condescends our very being, our way of living, until eventually we are right back where we started. Unopinionated.
A tool.
A machine.
We are given this ability, this right, to state how we feel. and when we think differently than everyone else we are looked down upon.
Our ability of freedom in the form of personal statement is taken away from us before we can even use it.

Screw society. Screw anyone who doubts your abilities to perform or think. I dont mean to sound cliche' but Fuck conformity. Where does it get anyone. Thinking like the next average joe. I am sick of being told I can do something if it makes me happy and then when I do it, and it does make me happy, and then being told I am wrong for doing it, for following through. Reason and passion. That is all that should matter.

It never will.
We are all talk.

For as much as I love having views and opinions, I miss when I didnt have AS many. When I had nothing to worry about and I didnt think until I thought my head might explode.





I wish I was a bird.
-Jimmy